Ode to -beinte otso-

The past 1361 days… a little over 45 months… have undoubtedly become the very best days of my life. Everything has changed since that fateful day when fate brought us together… our goals, our priorities, our perceptions in life, our friends and families… everything has come and gone except YOU. You were the one “constant” that helped me get through the good, the bad, the happy and sad moments of my life. Whenever I’m down, you were always there to pick me up, prodding me onwards to try again. You never gave up on me no matter what. You were the reason why I became the stronger and much wiser person that I am now. You were also the only one who cares and loves me enough to go the extra mile just to see me smile. For the past 3 years, you were my only source of pleasure and sheer bliss. You made life so worth living and you were the main reason why I have the will to wake up each passing day. Ultimately, you have given me the one thing that I have been longing for since the first time I have learned to love… security. You taught me how to trust again…to have faith in other people but most especially to have faith in myself. Your seemingly endless love for me has sown my heart together from disparity and heartbreak and made me whole. Since then, I have loved you like I never thought I could ever love someone else. I devoted my life to you and I gave you all of me.

But now we are faced with, by far, the hardest and most emotionally-consuming obstacle in our lives together. It shattered my heart and drained my very core. We never talked about breaking-up because you never wanted to hear even a word of it. Maybe because it was never an option – up until now. But the one thing that stuck to me that I remembered you saying was that if you were ever to face an inconceivable break-up… you will never give up easily on us and that you will fight for me to the end.

This is what I’m trying to do now. Please don’t hate me for doing this. I am not trying to make you miserable. It’s just that I feel it in my heart that I have to do this. I want to do this. Because I love you far more than you can ever imagine. I feel like this is the right thing to do… just like what happened last night… you holding me in your arms…it felt so right… that it’s where I belong. I’m not going to give up just like that. The war is not yet lost. Please let me know if I stand a chance… Please let me know if you want me to fight for you… for us. We are so good together. I know this will be hard but please stick with me.

I don’t want to look back to this day and regret why I did not even TRY to fight for you. Please give “US” a fighting chance. Don’t you think that we deserve one more shot? Honey, please… won’t you stay in the room with me? Let’s give “happy-ever-after” one more chance.

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LET'S STAY TOGETHER

I'm so in love with you
Whatever you wanna do
Is alright with me
You make me feel so brand new(It's you that always makes me feel brand new)
I want to spend my whole life with you(I just wanna spend my life with you)
Let me say that since, since we've been together
Loving you forever is what I need
Let me be the one you come running to(Let me be the one that you run to)
I'll never be untrue(I will never be untrue to you)
Oh baby let's stay together(Let's stay together)
Let's stay together(Let's stay together)
Loving you forever(Let's stay together)
Times are good or bad, happy or sad(Good, bad, happy or sad)
Ooh, tell me why can't we stay together(Good, bad, happy or sad)
Why, why do people break up
Turn around and make up

And I just can't see
You'd never do that to me(you would never do that to me)
Being around you is what I see(Being around you that is what I see)
Baby baby let's, let's stay together(Let's stay together)Loving you whether(Let's stay together)

Simple Realizations

1. You don’t need anyone to complete you.


2. Love yourself first and foremost. Be sure not to lose track of that when you share your love to someone else.


3. Being single is fun! No worries, no restrictions, no objections!


4. It’s not so bad to live by the moment… not to relive the past and think so much about the future.


5. Choose your friends well… you’ll never really know who your true friends are until such time that you need them most… whoever sticks around and walks through the fire with you… is a rare gem… never to be lost… always to be treasured.


6. Grief and sorrow are there to make you strong. Don’t lurk away from the hardships of life or escape the burning agony of living… take a stand… make a resolve… will yourself to move on. There’s more to life than you expect.


7. Welcome the changes in your life like a child eagerly anticipating the presents on Christmas morn. You’ll never know what you’re gonna get ‘til you rip open the fancy wrappings, reach inside the box & pull out the well-thought-of surprise. More often than not, it’s not what we wished for… but oftentimes, it’s just what we need… we just haven’t realized it yet.


8. When you feel like everything and everyone has turned their backs on you… when you feel the urge to break free and make your silent escape… stop for a while… look around… amongst the clutter in the world, you’ll find another soul suffering the same pain, enduring the same trials, feeling the same soul-wrenching grief… making you realize that in fact, you are not alone.
9. If your great love failed you... pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and be ready to try again. Do not use your heartache as an excuse to shun the next great person who comes along... you'll never know if destiny's already knocking at your door. Be forever grateful for the happy moments, the broken heart and the lessons learned from your one great love.
10. Happiness is a prerogative.